Yes,the child in you is hoping beyond hope that the mother will love
him deep down,the problem is,that need is so powerful it overrides
your right to live in dignity in present time . . .YOU need to take
responsibility for the child,and see that that fantasy will never come
true.YOU need to look in phone book or library or Church or computer for someone somewhere local to give you the help you obviously need. YOU ARE WORTH THE COURAGE YOU NEED TO DO THIS.
Deepest Respect,
BLUEDOVE