Sorry to bump up this old thread, cause its very relevant to me now.

I used to have homicidal thoughts in the past & present, got warded for it, came out and still dealing with it at the moment.

During a point in time in my life, I also sort of promise myself, if I die I'm not going alone because so many people are attempting to bring me down, upset and anger me, esp the ones living nearby opposite my house.

The frequency and timing of these provocations are enough to set me off. I don't feel any peacefulness here. I feel the need to get rid of them to feel at ease.

It was not manageable in the past, at the moment I'm trying not to get controlled by it, though its difficult.