I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, TheLonelyChemist We all love you here! Please remember that. There are many people who care about you here. I know it's not the same thing, but at least it's something! Please don't be so hard on yourself! I'm sure things will get better! I promise you that! Please don't give up hope! Remember that you're a strong, wonderful person! Please remember that! Believe in yourself! Remember that I'm here for you if you need it. I'll always be here to support you! We'll all be here to support you! I hope that makes you feel a little bit better at least! Sending many hugs to you, TheLonelyChemist! You're a strong, wonderful person! Please remember that!