Thank you all for your replies. I imagine I have some level of postpartum depression. I’m managing ok. We have not met the baby yet as he is 4 hours away but they are supposed to be coming up next weekend. I have this internal feeling like I do not want to face any of them because of my emotions.

I’m having a hard time being happy for anyone. My other in laws are moving and will be purchasing a nice big house. I have neighbours who will be building and I’m jealous that they may have a nice big elaborate house. We just built a couple years ago. I mean how awesome is my life? I have everything I wanted and more. I should be very blessed. But I take my feelings and it’s so negative towards others. What am I missing that is causing me such greed?

Again thank you all. I’m sorry if I sound like an unselfish person. I do have guilt because of my feelings.