Hi, Jaymoq, just wanted to add a reply since I can totally relate to you. I have a big fear of meds, and every time I am prescribed a new one, I’m reluctant to start it if things are going well or if I have a lot going on because I’m afraid of so many things. Afraid it will make it hard to focus at work, afraid I won’t enjoy life as much when my moods are stabilized, afraid my relationships will be different, and the list goes on. But, then I try to remind myself that there is a reason I went to a doctor in the first place. I may feel good now, but I must have been in a really bad place to seek out help as much as I hate the idea of going to a doctor and taking meds. Maybe try to remind yourself of that next time when fear creeps in. The meds won’t make you any worse than you are without them, and there is a good chance it could make you better. Hang in there!