True but i am so confused as to whats causing me to not have energy. Because its like no matter what i do everyday, im STILL energyless. I could be really excited about something but i still wake up with no energy. I feel like something is very wrong with me medically, because it shouldnt be like this. Unless its the meds. I think im going to change from haldol to maybe geodon. Idk idk idk. Something. Anything but haldol.

Believe me im pushing very hard. I apply to jobs every single day. Im making appts to get better. Im taking my meds and vitamins as prescribed. I rarely miss them. Im still energyless.

Maybe i need a motivation yes.

Bf is getting a second job because we are struggling. I will never really see him anymore. And that pains me so much.