Dear T,
I am so afraid that the person at work is going to give me a stellar review, because my pdoc told me that in order to get what I am seeking, you have to not be able to do any of the things I am supposed to do. I am so afraid and it already feels invalidating to me. I don't know if other people realize I am crazy, sometimes I think they do, and sometimes I think they have no idea. This is not going over well. I am trying to be mindful and accept whatever my brain is thinking without following it. I feel like crying for the rest of my life. I am also trying to relax and not stress myself out. I am terrified, afraid. Ugh.
me