A little back story. We met online and didnt really know each other but a few months before she moved in with me. She lived in a different state a few hours away. She's 30 and I'm 28. I'm already financially stable and she was wanting to become a nurse.

We decided that we really liked each other and thought this might be the real thing so she moved in with me. And, decided she should just start her school here instead of trying to have our relationship long distance.

I have next to 0 family where I live and she has all her family where she use to. Through out our whole relationship she has chose to go spend her holidays with her family and leave me here by myself because I had to work or could not get the time off. There were a couple holidays she spent with me but I feel it was only because she had to work. But for the most part I was alone and sad by myself on holidays.

Fast forward 2 years later. Her birthday comes and we both have the time off, I decide to plan a trip with her for a small get away on our couple days off. I find out she's going to go home and spend with her family and asks me to come to and I'm mad and tell her no, I wanted to just have her to myself for a change but she goes anyways and I stay home.

Then my birthday comes and she had planned a trip for me for mine but also says she's inviting her family and I told her of rather alone time so I just rather not go if it cant be us. She then chooses to cancel the plans and go home to see her family and I'm left on my birthday by myself.

**Let me add a little extra details as I'm scattered in thought, emotionally hurt and didnt plan how to write this to begin with**

It's already hard to find time to spend together in the middle of her schooling and both of our work schedules. I've also chose to stay home instead of hangout with my friends amd picked up on a gaming habit with some of my online and real life friends whom I dont see. I felt this would be better since I would be available and at least here at the house instead of leaving her alone. And theres been some times I've chose to game over her or spend a extra hour on the game then to be with her and this is how she justifies going home and leaving me in a house by myself.

Fast forward to the break up. She's is set to finish school at the end of the semester, her family who never comes here to visit is coming to see her finish. Were all suppose to celebrate that night and I told her let's go somewhere together, you're going to want to after these crazy years of school. She said she's going to go home to visit her family and celebrate. I'm just curious and hurt and I told her to just go home, you got your schooling done by living with me and paying what Bill's you could afford when you could for the past 2 years, you can figure out the next 2 months on you're own I'm done being hurt and playing second fiddle to your family.

I feel theres nothing to build on if I have to force her to want to spend time with me. She's staying with her friends while she finishes the last months of school. Been there for a week now. She says she misses me and wants to come home and I want to let her because I miss her and care for her too but I don't want to open myself up to hurt again. So I'm trying to just stay away and hold my ground. Am I making a big deal of nothing? Are our memories for holidays and birthdays not that big of a deal?