I'm so confused right now. I want more energy but I also want to relax. I want to feel emotions but not painful ones. I want people to like me but I want to be unnoticed. I don't want to sleep but I don't want to get out of bed in the morning. I want to change the past but then I wouldn't be me. I want to travel the world but I can't be bothered to explore the new town that I moved to. I want to but I don't have the motivation. Maybe if I start small then I can. Idk. I don't want to party. I don't want to be the life of the party either. I want to read but I feel like I don't have time to do it. I feel like I have no time for anything.