My childhood friend deleted me from facebook cuz I was in a bad state. I cared at first but now I don't care at all. He wasn't a real friend for not staying with me through my bad times. But it was also part of the reason try to be clean from drugs. Because I come with self destructive tendencies. People can walk away if they want. I would walk away from someone that is self destructive and wouldn't be their friend in the first place but I will always try to help current friends and stay through it with them. But I help other addicts that I don't even know. I'm just talking about other self destructive things like pulling me into their mess except if they're family members.

What's in my head is some pretty messed up stuff. Things I can't even think of right now. Right now for you, they are intrusive probably in your head and you're thinking about them too much. Take a deep breath, breathe out.. Think happy thoughts! No jk.. that doesn't help..

That childhood friend took thousands of his parents money and spent it on weed and couldn't pay them back so w/e