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Desoxyn · Mar 30, 2019, 03:14 AM

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Originally Posted by Erti

I've been self destructive but never have i done anything like drugs or alcohol to help with the pain... however i did self harm and was suicidal. It didn't help when friends would bail out on me. i was talking to Ross about it last night... I plan on telling my therapist about it... sexual self harm and self harm in general. I've not done it in a long time but it's hard when you hear spirits tell

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you to cut yourself and make yourself bleed for them to live again. i've done sexual self harm, cutting, banging my head, and punching myself on my face, arms, and legs.

I struggle with this because I use to do it since i was 11 years old... in different types of ways. again self destructive behavior...

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Then there was suicide attempt when i was 7 and tried to hang myself in the back yard on a tree... i've tried slitting my wrist, overdosing, and drowning myself

I'm struggling right now with the spirits but at least i'm not where i use to be.

Try your best to not let yourself be where you used to be. You've come a long way and you're not damaged. You're growing and have strength.

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Few months ago I was burning myself with a lighter for the rush. I have no idea what it's like to be a cutter because I never really felt the need to cut. I dealt with it mostly with drugs. I don't enjoy pain. I chased the energetic, euphoric, motivating, focused, sedated, psychedelic, magical dragon. Then it showed up and engulfed me with fire and hell.