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Erti · Mar 30, 2019, 03:24 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Desoxyn

Try your best to not let yourself be where you used to be. You've come a long way and you're not damaged. You're growing and have strength.

Possible trigger:

Few months ago I was burning myself with a lighter for the rush. I have no idea what it's like to be a cutter because I never really felt the need to cut. I dealt with it mostly with drugs. I don't enjoy pain. I chased the energetic, euphoric, motivating, focused, sedated, psychedelic, magical dragon. Then it showed up and engulfed me with fire and hell.

Thanks man... i feel damaged and weak. i can't help thinking that...

Possible trigger:

I was sexually abused and rape at the age of 2-3 years until i told my grandmother at 7 years old. I was locked in a room for days without food and neglected hygiene. i was threaten with a knife and was told they were going to cut my head off if i misbehaved. I was thrown across a room at 7 and at the age of 12 my uncle grabbed me by my hair and slammed me on the ground. my mom was emotionally abusive. called me a and lazy and threaten to beat my *** if I don't stop banging my head against the floor. she'd hold me down with her feet and leave bruises when grabbing me by the arm forcefully and would also leave bruises on my arm while she punched me on my arm. I also didn't learn how to read until i was 9 years old because i would missed school for untreated lice. I had flunked 2nd grade because i had missed 42 days o school that year.