I've been ignoring it. I know self harm is a bad thing but deep down in my brain i'm feel like i need to do it... it'll calm them down and stop it all... i want to stop it all. i'm gods gift for the dead. I need to appease the spirits... hermes tells me I can fly... in the sky and see my uncle and nan because they're waiting for me up in the afterlife. they are at peace though... i want to see them. i want to see them again... I have life now but when death comes i'll get to see them again. i'm going to hell when i die but if i can fly into the heavens i can see them again one last time before i die and go to hell.