sorry to hear you are struggling. I do hope, sincerely, that you can get thru this. I am a rapid cycler and I go from manias to deep depressive states frequently. I am in one currently and have been sleeping very poorly. maybe the meds are causing you to feel this way? perhaps asking your doc or describing your current state of depression would help. I know this may sound cliche, but try to think about positive things in your life. go over, in your mind, things you are grateful for. it may help. sending best wishes your way. get better. and please stay in touch.