I’m sorry T, I know you would not approve of where I am right now even though I can’t say for sure what you would be feeling. I know it would cause a chain reaction that might ruin our ability to work together beyond your control. I’m doing the best I can, I did everything right until now but there is no help so I am doing what is working even if it is wrong. I don’t want to ever have to keep a secret from you but I guess I will have to keep this one until we get far enough past it that you don’t have to do anything. Please help me figure something out Thursday. Please.