Today went by and i kind of felt like i didnt exist. i didnt feel alive.
i slept until 3pm and woke up so rested but a bit foggy (took more meds yesterday night exactly to sleep more and better and it worked even too much!).

watched tv series, my dad helped me with some forms we needed to fill out online (insurance, getting PINs, money stuff) that i heatedly HATE (and we are not done with them yet, to finish all the paperworks it will take at least 1 more month!), and now im back on tv e pc (downloaded more tv series).

my cat slept with me and tomorrow i'll have a few more annoying stuff to do. with my parents its going ok.

yesterday night went well with my friend. we had a good time and talked about always the same stuff. about my work, about her job hunting and we did talk about food too. i told her about my issues with chocolate (day #5 chocolate free!) and she said that if i restart eating chocolate it creates addiction and i'll tend to crave it more. i dont know. maybe i should fix 1-2 days a week for eating chocolate and not every single day?

i also thought about my coworker. i'd like to have his cell number to…. i dont know? chat a bit? but maybe its better if things stay this way.
now more tv, dinner and sleep again (but tonight im not increasing the dosage again cause i'll need to wake up earlier to have lunch with my complete family - my bro too)…
weekends are so resting but a bit empty too… im still thinking about exT and what i'll need to tell Him, but i do have time for that. i'll see Him in a bit less than 3 weeks. i need not to stress over it. i DO have time for that!