I'm so sorry you're going through all of this, Aubrey43! I understand it must be very difficult for you. I completely agree with what CANDC and hvert have already wisely said better than I ever could! I'd suggest to listen to them if you can! They always give such great, wonderful advice! I'm really happy that you're feeling a bit better right now! I'd suggest to talk to your Pdoc and psychiatrist about this and see how it goes from there! Hopefully they'll be able to help you! Please do consider taking meds if you feel like they may help! Meds are often used to deal with anxiety! I believe that you can get through this! Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to cope with your feelings. Meds and therapy can be very useful if you're trying to cope with anxiety! I hope you'll be able to find the right solution for you! Remember that we're here for you if you need it! Feel free to PM me anytime! Let me know if I can do something to help you! Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes! I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, Aubrey43! Please don't give up hope! Try to hang on as much as you can! You're a strong, wonderful person! You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! I believe in you! We all believe in you! We're all rooting for you! Keep fighting! Remember that you're awesome and strong! Remember that you're a warrior! We'll allways be here for you if you need it! We all care about you here! We all love you here! You know we won't judge you here! I promise you that! Keep fighting! You can do this! You've got this! We all know that and I'm sure you know it as well, at least deep down! I hope things will get better soon for you! Keep us updated and let us know how it goes!