I have a hard time trusting my therapist these days. For example, a few weeks ago, she secretly called up my pdoc and told him that I stopped taking one of my meds. I only found out about the secret call when I went to my pdoc appointment the next day and he said to me, "So, your therapist left me a message..." I don't understand why she even ratted me out, ESPECIALLY since we had both agreed that I would tell my pdoc I stopped taking the med. She didn't even give me the chance to tell him. (We made this agreement the day before my pdoc appt, mind you...) I've never had a history of betraying my therapist when she's asked me to tell my pdoc something. So now I'm afraid that she'll secretly call the cops on me for something I say and then I'll get arrested or put in the hospital because she assumes the worst of me.

I never actually gave her permission to contact my pdoc, btw, but I'm guessing she has the right to talk to him because they work in the same office, and well, I probably signed a waiver that said they can talk to each other.

But seriously... why rat me out? If I'm not a danger to myself or others, then what's the point of doing that? And even if I WAS a danger to myself or others, wouldn't that require the hospital to get involved and not my pdoc? I already said I would talk to my pdoc, but nope, I wasn't given the chance to. She also obviously divulges therapy secrets. And this isn't the first time my pdoc has "known" things that I never told him.

I don't know how I can trust her. How can I have more faith in her? I want to give her a chance, but if she's going to operate behind my back, then idk...