Choosing to quit doesn't always mean that you have failed, though I can see how it can feel that way. There is nothing wrong with making a choice to put your time and energy somewhere else that may prove to be more fruitful and bring you joy.

I hope you can lessen the judgments you have for yourself--you don't deserve to be judged, though easier said than done. It sounds like you're trying to figure things out and that's perfectly okay. I also hope you can allow yourself to do what makes you feel good instead of trying to fit into someone else's vision of who you should be. No one's path is the same and we can't measure ourselves against others.

Sending positive thoughts your way!