Thank you Bill and WishfulThinker. You've given me some things to think about.

WishfulThinker, yes you could be right that she was trying to be nonpartisan. I mean, could you imagine if she was like negative or even "blah" towards the member about that subject just because of me? I would feel badly about that, first of all. And second of all, I know that other people, like this member, really like that art class, and I would never try to rain on their parade. I'm just not sure how to deal with my feelings about it when things like that come up. I may need to find a way to find peace from my bad art class experience (I have tried before, and it actually worked. It has just come back up for me I noticed, in a negative way again).

Also my mother said the same thing you did, Wishful, about maybe she was just trying to treat everyone as equals. She probably was.

About her pulling back. I really couldn't know why she pulls back, unless I point blank asked her. I do know, that when I am around there more often, we are closer, and when I am away more often, we are less close. At least, it's something I noticed. I am quite a hermit (Ok that's an exaggeration, but I like doing stuff on my own a lot). I have thought before that this made her uncomfortable, because she is SO social and extroverted.

Hi Bill. Ok so I read your response first, and was like "yeah." And then I read WishfulThinker's response, and was also like "yeah." Lol. I am glad it is not something I have to "make a choice on" right now. Or really at any time. I can go when I want, or not. It is up to me. Today I didn't go.

I do want to say, she does have her own issues she struggles with, and I understand this. However, it can be hard because in the past I've seen her as a support. And sometimes she literally says to me that she is too busy. Though she also expresses she cares. It's fine. I think I'm just trying to say that maybe our friendship is complicated sometimes, and it can be plentiful as well as well, not. And I do notice the more I'm in her arena, the more we are closer. Its been a while. I haven't been going to church much either, which is something she also goes to.

I think there are some other meditation groups. But I feel sort of...apathetic about one, and then I did look on meet up dot com, and there's some here and there. It's not out of the question to find another group, or in addition to this one. I can always meditate on my own too. I think when I need a group, my mind and body tell me. When I don't, my mind and body tell me.

Oh, and yes my reaction would have been different of she was not a friend I'd confided in.