I'm so sorry you're going through all of this, Ptak I completely agree with what all the other have already wisely said better than I ever could, including Bill3 and WishfulThinker66! You've been given some great advice on this thread! I'd suggest to follow it if you can and want! I believe that she was trying to be "objective" and professional in your relationship with her as well. I'm sure she has nothing against you! Things like this can just happen. I completely understand what you mean though. I understand why you'd feel this way. I'd suggest to talk to her about this and see how it goes from there. Maybe that could help. Just be honest with her and talk to her about the doubts you're having! Hopefully she'll listen to you and understand you! Hopefully she'll be able to explain things to you! I also completely agree with finding another meditation group if you can, perhaps in addition to this one if you can! I feel like that may really help you! I'm really happy that you can go to this meditation group whenever you feel like it! That's wonderful! I'm really happy that this meditation group is being helpful to you! I'm sure you'll be able to get through all of this! Please don't give up hope! Try to hang on as much as you can! Sending many hugs to you, Ptak! You're a strong, wonderful person! Please remember that! We all know that and we all believe in you! I hope you'll be able to believe in yourself as well!