I'm so sorry you're going through all of this, Ptak Please don't be so hard on yourself! You're NOT a failure ! You're quite the opposite! You're doing and trying a lot of things in your life and you're keeping yourself active and busy! You're doing a lot more than I'm doing! Please don't feel guilty about interrupting things often! I believe life is all about choices and trying out new things like you're doing! I think it's wonderful that you're being so active! I also believe it's important for you to focus on YOURSELF nad try to understand what YOU want to do and not what other expect you or want you to do! It's your own life and you need to live it the way you like it! I hope you'll be able to judge yourself a little bit less! Just take all the time you need to do all of this! Just take it one step at the time! Take baby steps! No need to hurry! I'm sure you'll be able to find something that you truly like to do somesay! Please don't give up hope! Try to hang on as much as you can! You're a strong, wonderful person! You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! I believe in you! We all believe in you! We're all rooting for you! We're all cheering you on! Sending many hugs to you, ptak! Remember that you're an awesome, strong warrior! Please remember that! We all know that! We all believe in you! I hope you'll be able to believe in yourself as well! I'm sure you'll be able to get through all of this! You can do this! You've got this! Please don't give up hope! Try to hang on as much as you can! Keep fighting! You're the best!