I really thought in light of the 3+ years we've been working together and everything you've seen me through, that somehow you would find a way to make an exception with regards to out of hours sessions, knowing that flexi time at work is no longer an option and I am struggling badly with suicidal depression and very recent bereavement.
But something has changed and I feel like you feel like we're done. The only way you could support me is by phone but you know I really have difficulty with doing emotional stuff over the phone.

So I guess that's it.

I need to start the damn awful process of trying to find someone else who can do out of hours sessions and learn to trust all over again.

I don't know if I can be bothered with any of it anymore. This life is more trouble than it's worth.