Thanks Scooter, Fern, and yellow-fleurs. You have encouraged me to stay here for now. I’m very self-conscious now.

Still, I will add to my update. I managed to get petrol and go for a swim. I swam hard, probably due to anxiety. Trying to burn it off. As I have Fibromyalgia, which is mild atm, I may crash later but it was worth it. My anxiety is less now. Trying to get in contact with my psychiatrist to get an Ativan script for my pharmacy given blister packs. As the pharmacy has already supplied 20 of their own (and also tried to contact my pdoc), if I don’t get a script by Thursday I will have to go without for four days which would be a disaster. Will try GP but my meds are so controlled she may refuse.

Trying to call the welfare line but they’ve been engaged all morning. If I get through it’s an hour wait. Need more staff. Want to nap. Tired but wired. So YouTube it is for now.