Getting up early is the only way to cope with things, it makes so much difference. Everything is easier when I have got up early and have more time, more organised. I really NEED to keep doing it. I've been trying to get up before 8 every morning and now trying to get up before 7, and around 6 on days I have to go out or be up for some other reason.

But sometimes I can't help lying there daydreaming about M, and once I start, it's hard to stop. But I really need to just get up and do things, and then later if I have time, then daydream about him.

Today I got up at 7 after daydreaming for about an hour, which is fine but tomorrow and Friday I will have to get up around 6, and not lie there daydreaming, making myself late.