I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, cryingontheinside! We're all here for you! You know that we all love you here and that we'll never judge you! Please don't be so hard on yourself. I know things seem pretty bad right now, but trust me when I say that they CAN and WILL get better! I promise you that! Please don't give up hope! Try to hang on as much as you can! I completely agree with what all the others have already wisely said better than I ever could! You've been given some great advice on this thread! I'd suggest to follow it if you can! Just try to take things one step at the time and I promise you that things will get easier whithout you even realizing it! Just try to do what you can right now. Eat healthy food. Try to sleep well if you can. Go for a walk. Listen to some relaxing music. I believe meditation is a great idea, like puzzclar has already wisely suggested! I'd suggest to try it if you cana and want! Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help! You could learn new ways to cope with your feelings! Keep trying your best! Just try to find as many distractions as you can! Anything that may help you get through all of this! Do you have a support system IRL? Anyone that you may reach you to and that may be able to help you? Please take good care of yourself! You deserve it! You deserve to feel good and to get better! You deserve to live an happy life just like everyone else does! I know things seem hopeless and that you feel bad, but please remember that there's NOTHING, I mean NOTHING, that others can do and that you can't! Please repeat that to yourself until you believe it, because it IS true! Always remember that we'll be here for you and that we'll never abandon you! I hope that makes you feel a little bit better! We all lvoe you here, cryingontheinside, and you deserve to get the best from life! Sending many hugs to you, cryingontheinside! You're a strong, wonderful person! You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! I believe in you! We all believe in you! We're all rooting for you! We're all cheering you on! Keep fighting! I hope you'll be able to believe in yourself as much as we all believe in you! You deserve to get better and to feel good! You deserve to live an happy life just like everyone else does! Please don't give up! Try to hang on as much as you can! Remember that we all care about you and that we all love you! Remember that you're an awesome, strong warrior! Remember that we eall believe in you and that we're all rooting for you and cheering you on! Please remember all of this! You're the BEST!