I felt like I had written your post as I was reading it as I am in a similar situation even down to the weight loss and gaining it back. I have a lot of awareness and Insight into why I am eating (eg. Numbing, avoiding, self sabotage) but it doesn’t seem to make any difference to making the changes I WANT to make to lead a healthier life. Insight alone is not enough for this IMO and I am also considering seeking another professional for help with it. There is a psychologist online called Georgie Beames that I’ve found helpful. She has a Facebook group called ‘food freedom’ and often has free 5 day challenges as well as paid programs. Also a good book I’ve recenrly discovered is called ‘Taming your outer child’ and it’s about our self sabotage tendencies and how insight won’t be over and offers some steps to help overcome them.