Lexi, we can struggle together. And maybe help ease eachother's struggle a bit? Let's hope so. *crosses fingers for the both of us*

Thanks for the hugs, everyone.

Last night I decided to work on crafts instead of cutting. I have found that it's a productive use of the various types of blades I have. I can't throw them out yet, but if I use them on cutting leather or something, then I won't use them on my skin. That's the theory. Well one of them is a craft knife which is a razor blade sort of on a pen. Twice, I accidentally lost my grip on it. Once it poked my hand, just enough to bleed. Then I dropped it on my wrist and it made a tiny cut. That was SOOOO triggering. I couldn't stop thinking about that feeling and the blood.

But I didn't do it this time.

Bad thoughts. I can't make them go away.

I have therapy Saturday. I hope things will get better then. My fear is that they will get worse

Thanks for listening,
Angela