On the private forum i was discussing, I was accused by one of the moderators of " trying to subvert a recovery meeting" as if she could read my mind. I posted something I was excited about and thought it related to the fellowship but brought it up in the wrong forum, as it turns out. Now this person is going to review all of my submissions for a month, but they obviously have a negative view of my intentions, so I don't see how i can post there, as anything i write can have the intentions behind it questioned and there is really no end to that.