"I listen to music, but that's really just for white noise, to at least keep what little of my sanity I have left. I am not artistically talented in any way so I'd never get anywhere with learning an instrument. It's frustrating. I just feel like I'm incapable of enjoying things. Everything just feels like a hassle. But nothing makes me sad or angry either really. Majority of the time I'm just apathetic towards everything."

This is what people are writing on reddit. I don't get how I can be depressed and not even realize it..