I see the intensity with which you seek reassurance more important than how much T gives or doesn't give. I don't say this judgmentally. I know it would be easy to read this post in a judgmental tone, but I am not writing with one. (I think I am reassuring you, here!) This is an observation. I have observed that your need for reassurance is so overwhelming to you that you often need that extra email contact or extra session just to be able to get through your day. That's how much you have a need for it.

I sometimes wonder... what would happen if T wasn't able to give it?