My brain seems to have turned to mush in the last 10 years. Back then I was holding down a fast paced, memory dense, position as a Case Manager full time. I was a memory machine. I had periods of ‘crazy’ but managed to function. Then Fibromyalgia hit hard. I was almost bedridden for a few years. Then Bipolar began to rage like it hadn’t since my teens/twenties. In fact it just got worse and worse. My memory began to slide but was still reasonable. Then I went through a series of idiot pdocs. Lots of bad meds in high doses. Memory worse. Finally I had several bouts of ECT. The last one in November being the worst. I forgot at least a whole year and rarely can read.

My illness has worsened dramatically over that time so that is a factor too. I think it’s a combo but ECT was the worst. I can’t recall conversations, data, facts, movies, what I just read, but oddly my emotional memory is still strong. Any memory attached to a strong emotion and I will never forget it. Not sure what’s up with that.