Having a meltdown. 4 weeks from my father's death and the tears finally started. I wanted to do this my therapist but apparently I just needed to listen to my father's favorite music and I'm verging on a panic attack. I guess I need to play youtube music in therapy? (OK, opening the box with the ashes had a role but I've melted into a sobbing mess and having to focus on breathing for whatever reason). I put my father in my garage.....how weird is that?????