I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, eclairparty98! I agree with what all the others have already wisely said better than I ever could! You've been given some great advice on this thread! I'd suggest to follow it if you can! I don't have much to add to what everyone on this thread has already wisely and wonderfully said! I completely agree that he seems like an abusive, dangerous man. From what you wrote it seems like you know it as well! Please try to run away from him as soon as you can! You deserve MUCH, MUCH better than him! Please try to dump him as soon as you can! You deserve to live an happy, fulfilling life and relationship, but with someone else that will truly love you for who you truly are! Please try to run away from him as far and as soon as you can! You deserve to live a better life and to NOT be abused at all! Please don't give up hope! Try to hang on as much as you can! We'll be here for you if you need support! I hope your family and friends will be supportive as well! You deserve all the help you can get to get through all of this! You're still in time! It's not too late! Keep fighting! Run! I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, eclairparty98! We all believe in you! Believe in yourself as well! I hope you'll be able to believe in yourself the same way we all believe in you! You're a strong, wonderful person! You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! I believe in you! We all believe in you! We're all rooting for you! We're all cheering you on! Keep fighting and take good care of yourself, ok? Remember that you're an awesome, strong warrior! We all know that! I'm sure you know that as well, even if it's deep down! Keep fighting! You can do this! You've got this! Keep fighting!