I'm sorry you're hurting. You sound like a tender-hearted person and despite what some may think that's a strength. It means you have empathy and care. But these can also make you susceptible to hurt...I know because I speak from personal experience. There are times I can convince myself the hurtful words are not personal, it's the person's projection. Or speak up and tell the person that statement isn't fair. But yeah, it hurts. You are strong, and you deserve only kindness. As we all do.