I’m not sure where to put this. But it’s confusing me and making me feel weird. I’ll put a TLDR at the end.

So I moved in with my oldest brother about 7 or 8 months ago. If it matters, I’m 22 and he’s 26. I was screwing up and lost my job because I was too busy having problems with an ex. My brother has let me live with him in the past since we’ve always been close and hes always had his life together. I told him I’d get a job and help pay rent. To make things short, somehow he started just kind of taking my paychecks and giving me money when I needed it.

But thats not what I’m posting about. Hes been acting kinda weird and...sexual? Maybe? I’m not sure and I don’t know if im just being weird. There’s been a few things that happened, but here’s the most recent one:

We used to wrestle a lot as kids and teenagers and sometimes still do for fun. A few months ago we were doing this and he pinned me and uh...put his thumb in my mouth. I was really surprised and didn’t do anything about it at the time, I was just like wtf and we laughed it off.

It made me kind of freaked out because that’s happened to me in bed with men. I haven’t said anything about it since then because I don’t want to piss him off or anything especially if it was nothing. It just felt too intimate, like the way he was grabbing my face. Idk does this sound weird? I know him handling my money isn’t good either but this weirds me out more.

TL;DR: my brother did something quasi-sexual to me while we were hanging out and I can’t tell if it was sexual or just an weird accident/thing. Afraid to bring it up because I am pretty much dependent on him.