I'm so sorry you're going through all of this, Blueberrybook! It must be very hard for you! I understand what you mean and why you'd feel scared. Surgeries are definitely scary for everyone! I completely agree with what all the other wonderful people on this thread have already wisely said better than I ever could! I wish you the best of luck and my deepest good wishes that things will go well and that they'll be able to find an easy and painless way to make you feel better! Please do take good care of yourself becaure you're WORTH IT! Please remember that! Keep us updated and let us know how it goes, Blueberrybook! You know we all care about you here! We all love you here! Feel free to vent and write here as much as you need and want! You know we won't judge you! I promise you that! Sending many hugs to you, Blueberrybook! You're in my thoughts and prayers and I'll pray for you that everything will go well and that you'll feel better soon! I hope things will get better soon for you! You deserve to get better and to feel good! You deserve to feel good and to live an happy, fulfilling life just like everyone else does! Keep fighting! I'm so sorry you're have to deal with all of this, Blueberrybook! You don't deserve to suffer at all! Nobody deserves to suffer at all, certainly not you! Keep fighting! Remember that you're an awesome, strong warrior! Please remember that! We all believe in you! Please try to believe in yourself the same way we all believe in you because you ARE WORTH IT and you're much STRONGER than you even realize and think of yourself! You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! I believe in you! We all believe in you! We're all rooting for you! We're all cheering you on! Keep fighting! You deserve to get better and to feel good! Please remember that! Keep fighting and trying your best like you're already doing! Please believe in yourself!