I've got to get my bf into a nursing home, at least temporarily, because I'm losing my ability to cope. I'm overwhelmed (finally,) and I can't even pretend I'm doing a good job, at this point. I'm not. I'm not meeting all his physical needs, and I've become so irritable, I'm not even nice to him.

It's good that I know what I have to do. However, I am having a hard time summoning up the energy to move ahead with what comes next.

I'm not feeling real depressed. Mainly I just feel disgusted with everything.

Somehow I've got to get these arrangements for him made. I just want to give up.