Thank you ALL so much for your beautiful replies, you wonderful people - I am so so so terribly sorry for not replying to all of your caring meaningful responses sooner and individually. I really want to emphasise how much these messages do in fact mean to me, I have read all of them carefully and am overwhelmed by the support and understanding I took the popular advice on board and tried to break up with my boyfriend but he's apologised and wants another chance which I gave him after a very long intense phone call.. We're meeting latee today to discuss it further.

Forgive me, all - I know I am probably not doing the right thing knowing he'll never change but I would like to see what CAN change.. for closure, I think. this is his final chance to make things right, I promise.

I hope you're all well thank you all, again - I am truly touched.