Just remind yourself that deserve better treatment and start reading up on patterns of verbal and emotional abuse in romantic relationships. The more that you inform and educate yourself, the stronger you'll feel and eventually, will be able to set firm boundaries with abusive men, to protect yourself.

That boyfriend of yours is not a good guy and he'll do anything he can to reel you back in to the cycle of abuse he's created. I hope you'll find the strength to leave him behind when you're ready! I know you gave him a second chance, but just know, that is what he wanted and he will tell you whatever you want to hear, and he will treat you sweetly until he knows he's hooked you again. And then he'll verbally abuse you and then shame you when you react aware that you know what he's doing. FYi: men who verbally/emotionally abuse and manipulate will never acknowledge that's what they're doing. They will lie to you, deflect, and evade accountability. Take it from a gal who's been hit a few times. I still get manipulated, but at least I stop the cycle before it gets to the physical abuse stage now. Being single for a decade was not by choice, but because i attracted abusers into my life. So, until I can fix that codependent part of myself that attracts abusive men, I am very, very, leery of men at the slightest verbal cue that they're abusive, passive, aggressive.

i wish you luck dear! Always put yourself first in your relationships with men. Don't date a man to fix him, b/c you can't. The only person who can fix a broken man, is himself. And if he doesn't want to do the work, he'll just look for convenient victims to project his self-disgust on to, and will abuse because that fills the void he has within himself, that is self-loathing. Until he fixes himself, he will continue to abuse women.