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Blue_Bird · Apr 03, 2019, 01:48 AM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

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Blue_Bird I don’t necessarily have an ED so maybe I’m talking out of my ***. But here goes.
I will either eat 250 calories a day for 4 days and then eat 2000 calories in one meal or I’ll meticulously measure and count to reach my perfect 1500 calories/day for a couple days and then stop eating because the tracking making me crazy. I don’t intentionally restrict or skip meals...I just don’t always think of it or feel like I can physically handle it.
I have always been this way. Even when I was very heavy.
I have suddenly realized oops it’s been 3 days and all I’ve had is coffee and this twizzler. I rarely get really hungry and if I do I can ignore it and it passes in a few minutes. I quite honestly go days without thinking about food.
Somehow I’m still relatively “healthy”. Despite sometimes eating 3 meals a week I’ve never had to be hospitalized or get fluids.
So you being so ill is incredibly frightening to me. Have you had a full work up?

I don’t really have any advice. I talk out my *** to my daughter about balanced meals and seeing food for what it is...fuel. But in all honesty me and food have a pretty complex relationship. It’s love (of all things junk food) or hate (healthy crap). But I also use it for comfort, entertainment, reward system, to pass the time, etc. all the bad associations. I try really hard not to pass that all on to her but I’m probably failing.
Well...I kind of rambled. Sorry about that. Tired and full of thoughts.
I think you’re doing great. Maybe just a little extra fuel for the fire.

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Thank you valley

I'm trying. I had bloodwork done while in the hospital the other day, I know my electrolytes weren't good but I'm not sure of much else, which is why I had 2 bags of IV fluids. My heart was beating irregularly, which is related to all that of course. My blood pressure was really high but went way down, back to normal after I got the fluids.