I haven't a clue what to do. I feel so down the pain is unbearable, Im really struggling tonight.
I need a life. I need something to keep me going and a reason to wake up in the morning and I dont see it ever happening. I need a job, but I have no qualifications, no experience and no transport to get me around. I keep getting rejected, I cant get rejected anymore. My dad hates me. Telling all the family last night how much of a loser I am and making me look like a burden to him. I havent got a mum. I cant seem to pluck up the courage to tell my boyfriend how down Im feeling, I left him thinking I was just in one of my 'moods' tonight and now I feel even worse. Im going to lose him aswell if this carries on.

I just want my ambition and my willpower back but its all drained out of me. I want to wake up and I want everything to be better. I want to cut so badly right now, but Ive realised that its only going to make me feel better for a few hours. Then what? Whats the point?

I hate myself right now