I feel sick through my whole body. I took Valium. It helped a little. I think it's panic. I can't kick it and it won't stop. Thankfully only one flashback today. I was angry earlier at my father for reasons I'll explain later. Bad stuff. I can't distract myself easily. Dissociation keeps happening. I thought it was Friday and 5 days since I talked to my partner. It was only 2. I couldn't get the disorientation to stop. The day has passed by in both a split second and an eternity. I almost don't believe the clock or know if the time is accurate. It's a deception.