I’m feeling very discouraged today. Ive been diagnosed with bipolar II and OCD, but I don’t think I’ll ever find a medicine to work for me that I can tolerate. I mentioned in another post that I am trying Depakote now since the recommendation is to treat the bipolar first before the OCD. I’ve been on antidepressants in the past, which triggered mania. My doctor wanted me to stick with it for a month as a trial, but I’m at 2 1/2 weeks and don’t think I can make it much longer. I can’t stand not feeling anything - excitement, love, etc. I have no drive whatsoever and feel distant from my family, nit to mention the depression that remains and is actually worse than when I wasn’t taking anything.

Today, I worked for about 5 hours and then binge watched Netflix shows at my desk for the remaining 3 hours because I couldn’t keep myself going. Every mood stabilizer I have tried has been this way for me. Maybe it’s because I also have OCD? Does anyone else on here have OCD along with bipolar?

My pdoc mentioned I could try antipsychotics since they are supposedly better for bipolar depression, but the one I tried - Seroquel - triggered a manic episode for me at the starting dose of only 25 mg. It’s just so frustrating. I don’t mind having mental illness and I don’t mind taking meds, but it’s so hard when I have to find a medicine to manage two illnesses, and to make matters worse, I am so sensitive to meds that it’s nearly impossible to find one since I have to start much lower than most people do. I just wonder if I should give up and try to cope with therapy alone because I don’t want to waste my life away staying on medicine trials that make me feel worse, not better. I’m sorry, I shouldn’t be complaining so much. There are probably many on this forum in much worse situations than mine. I’m just feel discouraged today and needed to vent. Thanks for listening.