Hello Ptak

here's a big, safe for you!

I am sorry you had to wait an hour for the doc and then got disappointing news. It is understandable that you don't feel great about learning that you've gained weight...I think your reaction was very human. That said, please remember that your value is intrinsic...it is not diminished by the number on the scale in any way. You are just as wonderful as you were a year ago when you weighed less.

Though I understand your concerns. I have a friend who struggled with her weight. She found meeting with a nutritionist to be really helpful....someone kind, knowledgeable, and non-judgmental. My friend said she gave her practical tips on day to day choices for food...small manageable changes she could make and then she really saw results over time...the more slowly people lose weight, the easier it is to keep it off. I'm sure a nutritionist could also help you with the IBS.

Go easier on yourself, will you? Grab a piece of paper and write down nice things that people have ever said to you in your life. Write down a few things you like about yourself that have nothing to do with size or weight.

You aren't "fat." You are a lovely person with a bright future!