We had a session this evening. I was very open with him and told him that one of the hardest parts of him going away is not that I won't have his support, but that I have to deal with the reality that he has a life and that's really, really painful. He told me that although he won't be checking his messages with as much frequency as he normally does, he would still be checking and would return calls-- and that I could call the office phone or his cell phone. I have never called his cell phone before. He said it is the phone he uses for business, but I always felt like it is this huge boundary violation. I said to him, "What happens if I call your cell phone and you pick up?" And he goes, "I will probably push the button on my cell phone and say-- Hello? And then we will talk." LOL I told him how part of me felt guilty about calling during his time away because it feels like I would be ruining his week, but there is always this part of me that fantasizes he will be having an awful time. I told him that I have a fantasy that he will have an "Easter Disaster" and that when he opens his chocolate bunny it will be melted and all his Easter eggs will be smashed. We talked about how even here, I am still holding two feelings for him at the same time-- although I have these fantasies, I am also concerned for him and don't want to be a burden during his week off. He told me that I can call and he expects two check-ins from me during the week and he will call back. This is easier than when he went away during the summer because during that vacation he wasn't returning any phone calls. It was really cute because when I was in his office he made me get up and come to his desk... then he gave me the phone and dialed his own voicemail to listen to the vacation message he had put on-- to hear that there was, in fact, a return date. I'm going to miss him a whole lot.