Today's session was really intense. Some stuff about my relationship with T and lots about ex-MC. I wish I could have had another hour in there. Still processing it and likely will be for a couple days. It's clear my T really cares and is trying to understand it all. And he said today that he's concerned that because he shared a few of his goals for me that I'm trying to show I'm meeting them before I'm really ready to do so. I'd said something about 6 years with ex-T and how I was seeing him twice a week, shouldn't I be making progress more quickly? But he said maybe I'm going at the speed I need to. How this could turn out to be a 6-year relationship with him, and if so, that's OK, it's just my process. It really helped to hear all of that. Again, more later.