yeah, soli, i think i am seeing threads of that in my current situation, and it raises the same questions.... i spoke out against bad verbal treatment in a group setting and now i am feeling like i'm being attacked by all the poeple who are supporting the one who did the verbal abuse. i've been crying for about 12 hours over this and trying to maintain a cool head when really i want to rip everyone to shreads and never go back EVER!!! But i have to see these ppl tomorrow and am really nervous.... something between humiliation, fear, anxiety, rejection, protecting myself... and wanting to run away.
I am seeing that I do end up in these situations frequently and then i am an emotional wreck. not good patterns. i could work on it in T if there were not already a gazillion things on the docket for wed. i just want to curl up like a porkypine and go away and let my quills speak for themselves.