dreamt a disturbing dream of sexual nature about t the night before my birthday

it was so disturbing I knew I could not go be near him and not be triggered

so I cancelled my appointment for my bday

t did not acknowledge my cancellation or even that it was my birthday at all... I was feeling a bit crushed

I emailed an explanation as to why I had to cancel -to protect myself and my mind state

t wrote back 30 min later with a sweet birthday message for me

his bday message made me feel better but I do wish these dreams would stop