Intellectually I know all about CBT--cognitive behavioral therapy. I could give a lecture on it. I could write a book about it. I can apply it to everyone else's issues. On my stronger days, I can apply it to myself. The hospital based all it's treatment on that. My therapist brings it up from time to time. My problem is it doesn't seem to apply--or I can't seem to apply it--because I'm so down in the hole, my self-esteem is so low that it just seems like it would take soooo much energy and strength to use CBT and question/argue with my negative thoughts that I don't even try. Yet I know that CBT is supposed to be used for healing those negative thoughts and negative self-image. But I can't seem to get up out of the hole to apply it to myself. For example, I just don't feel like I measure up--lots of insecurites and inferior feelings. CBT would question all those negative assumptions--but I tell myself it's no use 'cuz I'm a loser, always have been, always will be, so don't bother with trying to argue myself out of it. Does that make any sense?

Scott